i'll adopt

CAMERA OBSCURA

2010-03-21T14:09:00.000-07:00

I'd like for this blog to go in a different direction so here we go... i think i'll try really hard to put up videos of the music that is stuck in my head.

picture heavy

2010-03-09T11:08:00.001-08:00

invitations

2010-02-19T19:57:00.000-08:00

so i spent all day today making the wedding invitations and here they are sort of. they still have to be stamped and addressed but i'm glad i finished them as much as i did. note to anyone else making their own as well, make about 30 more than you expect to have finished cause you will mess up at least that many.

close up of the invite and rsvp card
there's 8 different versions, so not everyone will be gettin the same exact thing. yeah i spiced it up.

in the works.

2010-02-08T20:29:00.000-08:00

another thing i'm making is a tree thumb print guestbook sort of thing and here's it so far...I started with my bare hands and a piece of wood (trying to sound dramatic)

Then I found one of the woodburners here that I have only heard stories of. Then i went to town. The tree is finished, maybe i'll put our names and the date or something. but the idea is people put their thumb prints on them with stamp ink. its cute i think so i'll post the end result when it happens

Tenative playlist in the works.

2010-02-08T09:35:00.000-08:00

So last night, I went through my ipod and picked out 41 songs, 3.2 hours of music. Billy has to go through and pick what he wants now. Time could be an issue ha. oh well. but here's 10 of my 41 songs.

1. Neko Case- that teenage feeling
2. Walter Eagen- magnet and steel
3. School of Seven Sisters- half asleep
4. Animal Collective- the purple bottle
5. Dirty Projectors- two doves
6. Avey Tare and Kria Brekkan- sis around the sandmill
7. The Bird and the Bee- how deep is your love
8. Jenny Lewis and the Watson Twins- happy
9. Mates of State- like you crazy
10. Mama Cass- dream a little dream

yep.

frantic

2010-02-07T18:42:00.000-08:00

I typed out a whole thing here and when i was uploading my pictures it closed out, completely killing anything i had written. thank you porn virus on my computer and no i did not get from looking at porn, and yes you apparently can get them other ways.

what i had typed so far was a compelling tale of heroism and wedding planning, but i'll make a long story short. Woke up, realized i had about 100000000 things to do, freaked out a little, hit the ground running with a vengance. I got all the items needed to make my invites/rsvps. I made (or glued) my wedding cake topper, which i'm really proud of and i think its too cute.
the cake is going to sit atop one of these

and atop that is gonna be

all in all i feel allright about gettin some stuff slightly taken care of today. now if only i can get my invites done, billy to pick groomsmen, and undergarments so my dress stops being see through then i'll be feeling mighty fine about it all..

guess next i'll be making my reception playlist.

Piggy

2010-02-02T11:40:00.001-08:00

Piggy
Originally uploaded by Billy and Jessica

Today is clumbsy day.

2010-01-26T20:57:00.001-08:00

So far today I've dropped a glass on the ground at work and shattered it, broke off the wand to the espresso machine at work, just snapped it off. Then I dropped a glass bottle of lipton tea in the middle of the cafe at work. Then I sat on one of those giant long lighters in the car and broke it in two. Then while hanging up some christmas lights, I realized I shouldn't be holding the still-stuck-in-the-socket-shattered lightbulb while I plugged in the other end. Then I almost plugged in my laptop charger while holding the part where the wire is showing with a wet band. And finally I broke a cigarette, then lost the lighter.

ComeAlongFawn

2010-01-04T21:39:00.000-08:00

Knee deep in michigan

2009-12-29T00:38:00.000-08:00

So.. As you may or may not know I am in Michigan for the Christmas holiday. We are leaving on wed right before new years comes around but until then my time is pretty well occupied. all in all, i really like it here. I love the inlaws, their cats, billy, and all thats happening lately. Lots of wedding talk btw.. but i am kinda keeping that to a min in the blogworld. So on to the pictures. When i uploaded them they got all switched around, and frankly, the fact that its about 4 am here makes me not really give a shit enough to move them into an coherent order. So i'll just explain them. The first one here is billy's sister's dog, bailey. For christmas the bunnies got their animals presents and bailey got a knitted squid doll to play with, or eat like she did. so here's bailey in her christmas outfit.

Next up is a cutie pie of a picture of billy goat and myself. and a very nosey cat, sammy.

the inlaws got me a nice christmas goodie with my name on it. pretty cute.

Did i mention? WE ORDERED A GREENBURG TURKEY. i could go on and on about this particular turkey, from the fact that its straight out of tyler texas, to the fact that its fucking delicious. but i digress and will just say, i'm pretty sure everyone who had some liked it.

here's more proof of the out of order pictures... but last night i was super sleepy and cuddled up with sammy on the couch.

I hate that this picture came up next. owell. but still i have been so bored and had the crafting itch all week since being here, all my crafty what nots are back in mn. So we went to the store today and i got a pattern, then raided the mother's-in-law fabric stash, and can i just say that woman has more fabric than hobby lobby. and her sewing machine is pure magic. its almost witchcraft how wonderful it is. I am in love with it. I don't just love it, i'm in love. neways, I made this necklace sort of thing, well i made 2. one for myself and one that i will be selling on my etsy as soon as i can think of a name for the damn thing.

here's a close up of me wearing said necklace thingy. the fabric is a really pretty floral, you can't tell unless you are right up on it. but its super cute. kinda ivory too. pretty sure i'll sell this for something along the lines of $5 plus shipping of $2. so that'll be a whopping $7.

Also for christmas billy got this bitchin screen printing/light table toy and he's been pumping out dada trash collage tshirts like its going out of style. here's one of them

and here's the other. He's selling them online and at shows. $8 online, $7 at shows i believe

ok so this is funny to me. we pull up the first night here and this is the window decal his mom has. when asked how a cullen drives she says "FAST"

so back to the sewing mess i've been into lately. I made a dress this evening. here's a picture

Also since being here, I've hung out sue-san. a lovely lady. she made me a christmas present and here it is. I love it.

here's another dress picture that snuck in way after it was supposed to.

here's another picture of me wearing my fabric necklace thingy. seriously stay tuned for my etsy. i got some good ideas swimming in my nogggin

welp . i suppose, the end.

New camera!!!

2009-12-03T19:36:00.001-08:00

never again will you be subjected to cell phone pictures (ok maybe you will)!!! Billys parents bought us an early christmas present! a sony cyber-shot. see ...the pictures are proof!!

Wedding Planning has started.

2009-12-01T10:04:00.001-08:00

So we started the planning process. and my head is filled with matchbooks, sparklers, yarn made into flowers, and dresses. but first and formost we are making save the date magnet. Now get this cause you can order them all premade and what not online for about $250 for 250 of them. Or you can get custom printed business cards , 250 of them for $10 and then buy magnets that are one side sticky one side magnet, 250 of them for $40, and assemble them your own damn self. Yeah Diy is the way to go Ive decided. or my lack of a bank account has decided that is. So billy pulled out his photoshop skills and designed us a save the date card. And this is it.
Nextly, (yes i know nextly is redic), my friend Shaina is throwing us an engagement party on sunday and i pulled out my paint skills and made up this invite for it. I can dig it. diy baby d.i.y.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving.

2009-11-25T21:48:00.000-08:00

I could not be more excited. Three of the roomates left to michigan, leaving billy and me allllll alone in the house. So tonight we went to target and got the makings for a thanksgiving feast, then we went to menards and got a tree to decorate tonight. (we got the trashy huge colored lights ive always been so against but kinda love this year)

Anyways I thought I'd just document our menu for tomorrow.

Breakfast we have these -
http://annies-eats.com/2009/08/21/bacon-egg-and-toast-cups/
and these
http://bits-of-taste.blogspot.com/2009/10/banana-muffins.html
and the highest pulp content of orange juice imaginable cause that's what makes me happy. I made the muffins already tonight and I am crossing my fingers that they keep well in my airtight cake thingy i couldn't live without.

Now for during the day snacking I just boiled some eggs, scooped out the yucky yellow that i hate so, and sprinkled them with tony chacheries... boiled eggs has been a holiday snack staple as long as i can remember. I've just always scooped the yellow out. yuck yolk.

Then for the dinner I'm attempting this...
http://annies-eats.com/2009/06/22/herb-roasted-turkey-breast/
I'll end up mashing the roasted potatos cause I cannot have turkey with out mashed potatos.
I also bought some big fluffy rolls. Salad fixings that i might make bacon bowls for depending on time and energy.
Also depending on whether or not billy likes corn (still kinda up in the air) i'll make this
http://www.foodchannel.com/recipes/1570-cheesy-cream-corn-with-smoky-bacon

and then champagne and cherry cheesecake.

eat your heart out.

Cowl

2009-11-13T22:04:00.000-08:00

So I just knitted this cowl. It only took me an hour and half of half ass knitting and I freakin love it. So get out your size US35's (yeah freaking huge needles) and super super chunky yarn then cast on 18 stitches and knit one row purl the other till it goes around your neck then bind up the sides and wear it! I'm about to make a green one while Me and papa bear watch golden girls. (he is good to me hahaha)

A catch up post.

2009-11-12T12:20:00.000-08:00

Ok so my phone has been out of commission for about 2 weeks now, rendering my helpless, picture less, text less, and blog less. But today, the great text messaging gods came down from the heavens and bestowed upon me $40 worth of "topping up". LET UNLIMITED TEXTING FOR THE NEXT FULL MONTH REIN!!!!

SO. First things first, Bear Ears. If you are out of the loop you best jump back in it. I was roped into a colab with Billy (my fiance and Dada Trash Collage guy extraordinaire) and out came magical sounds. Ok so by magical, I mean i sound like a squeaky southern 5 year old but seriously give it a listen. myspace.com/bearearsmusic is the place to be, son. oh and that down there, is our band picture. (pre-tty cooool)

Next on the blog agenda, We went and saw Dirty Projectors last night. They were really freaking good. The ladies sing crazy good/well and the guy's voice is the stuff angels are made out of. here's some crappy pics from my cellular.

Next things last, I bought some essentials over the last two days. A wallet that made me swoon when i saw it. I haven't had a wallet since I jacked my grandma's about 5 years ago then put it away cause it was getting all worn, so my money and such has just been flopping around in my purse all willy nilly until today. I restored discipline.

I also stopped by good will yesterday and picked up this velvet dog painting thing. It hangs over the stove. Joely says its haunted but look at those sweet puppy dog eyes. Can't be.

Also, I wandered around Kmart today and found a nice comfy pair of knitted boots for work and lazy days. they were cheap and unreal amounts of comfortable.

Also i let a demonstration lady at kmart talk me into buying a "Mr. Sticky" because if i bought said "mr. sticky", I'd get Mr. sticky jr and giant sticky for free. then she showed me how it picks up pet hair, (its a lint roller btw, that you never have to replace anything on, you just rinse it off, dry it off , then lint yourself off) . But i figured with pup and pig roaming around leaving there yarn quality bunny hair everywhere, I best invest ya know. So all in all, I love it. There's my endorsement for Mr. Sticky.

Flikr.

2009-10-30T21:50:00.001-07:00

http://www.flickr.com/photos/43823972@N04/

My children

2009-10-18T10:27:00.001-07:00

Ok so this morning, bright and early, i woke up billy by making him coffee and coaxed him into the car and we headed on up north to ...well northern minneapolis. which is not that far away but still its fun to exaggerate... and we adopted some children. Piggy and Puppy Williams-Freed.
that picture was the first lunch i made for them... lettuce and pellets. yummmmy. and a little spinach.

thats piggy. she seems a little more keen on me than billy and puppy kinda likes billy better. so ...we each have our favorite children. ha.

there they are exploring the couch. also piggy is climbin all over me while i'm trying to type and i love it.

aren't they just almost too cute.

and here's puppy. this picture does her no justice. she is way way way cuter than this. the fuzziness didn't come through via camera phone.

also so far their favorite toy is an empty pbr 24 pack box that doubles as a tunnel/hideandseek box.

you have no idea how much i already love these babies. and i'm too happy to have them.

It snowed last night

2009-10-10T15:25:00.001-07:00

Oct 10, 2009 was the first snow... thats a little early if you ask me. But i'll get over it i suppose. So i was thinkin, you've probably never thought about where i live now. I'm off galavanting in minnesotta like a crazy person. well anyways this is where i live. First off is a picture of what i call "my wall" cause its all my wall hangings ive had for a while and whne i first started living here i didn't really think I lived here so i had to do something to feel more at home so i put up my stuff. yep. also the pictures suck cause once again, they were takin with my cell phone

In the living room theres a bookshelf where mine/joel's books live. we also have a giant map of that shows all the mountains and what not .. i'm tryin to think of the term...3d? no..? idk.

But heres the rest of the living room. many couches, coffee table, the usual, etc.

which brings us to the jungle, i mean the kitchen. we have fake plants and real plants in there, so its very jungle-esque... and the halloween table cloth doesn't hurt things either. festive!

THen there's "my" room. really its billy's room, but i live in it too.

I kinda took over the closet, aside from the bass drum that lives in there with my clothes

Then there's my mirrors, I want to have way too many mirrors but i'm only on 3 right now. but i am shooting for a collection.

oh and then there's the messiest bookshelf known to man. I thought about cleaning it today but i realized i'm not really that tidy of a person.

Then there's the bed. I like to keep about 3 blankets on it, and the christmas lights add a certain..oh who am i kidding haha, they are slightly trashy but i love it.

oh yeah, btw. Billy, who i lve with, asked me to marry him. Now i know what your thinkin, wasn't she just engaged to nick. yeah, well i was, but we called that off long ago.. and went back to just being a couple but then called that off as well. but the whole time ive lived here ive met a handfull of friends, but hands down my best friend is billy. and so its only natural, and its the first time its ever worked out that way for me. Ive never been friends with someone before we dated really. But the moral of the story is we do love each other. and here's my ring

St. Paul in the fall.

2009-10-03T15:55:00.000-07:00

Ok so today i wanted to go to this yarn store called 3 Kittens. So i google mapped it and everything and was driving there when i got lost. But I found a plant/tree store so I stopped to ask them directions to the yarn store but found so much cool stuff at this place... seasonal candles, buckets upon buckets of precious pumpkins , etc etc. But here's the tree I want for Christmas but the price tag said $324 or so, so i'm thinkin it ain't happenin.
I told you there were buckets of pumpkins. they were so tiny and precious and .50 cents each so i got 3

There were also bigger pumpkins.. I got one of them . they were sooo cheap. $2.00 as compared to the $6.00 numbers i found at Kowalskis, but that place is over priced anyways.

They also had a bunch of owls in there made of feathers. which we've already established i enjoy owls made of feathers.

So all in all i came home and put my pumpkins with a candle on the table and am watching witch tv programs so its very halloween in here.

oh yeah. yesterday I went to goodwill to look for a bag thats bigger to keep my yarn in so i can knit on the go, and found this super heavy coat. I am so happy i found it. I will not freeze this winter, i think.

The end. oh wait. actually go to whole foods or some place like that and get Numi Rooibos Tea. and put 2 capfulls of sugar free vanilla sweetner in it and enjoy it friend.

Back in the day

2009-09-23T08:56:00.000-07:00

I used to write a lot. I did a lot of creative writing, but was never very good at it. but it was fun to write a stupid little story and give it to a friend in a note at school. so needless to say if i'm referring to doin this in school i haven't done it in a while. So this mornign i woke up feeling slightly awake for once and thought i'd give it a go. so here's what i wrote this morning.

Lamb
She had no idea what breed she was for having never seen her face.
She only knew her fine coat was used to make luxury yarn and lace.
She’d prance around, and bleet, and bound towards any affection shown
Until one day she paced her grace and her owner left her overgrown.

Fully grieved she did retreat to the forests to hide herself.
The animals all jeered and laughed at her, “what a hideous gnarled mess!”
She found a hollow to hide and cry and weep and wail and whine.
Till she heard a gruff voice whisper a sweet nothing through the twisted pine.

“You’re lovely and fair, as far as I can tell, even with that tangled fluff,
So stop sobbing, my dear, and come with me, and I will fix you up”
And all her fond memories flooded back of how she used to be praised.
She let down her guard and left her hollow but found a creature that looked quite crazed.

He had said those sweet words through gritted teeth that seemed to be sharper than shears.
Those words that had been such a welcomed sound to her pathetic unloved ears.
And without one more warning he snarled and growled and swallowed her up in one piece.
And she laid in his belly, her new cemetery, and cried herself to sleep.

my trip to the pawn shop

2009-09-16T20:45:00.000-07:00

i went to the pawn shop the other day to pass some time and look at nintendo dseseses's and gamecubes and while i was there a woman busted through the doors demanding "whos driving the damn red minivan"...i didn't hear her but the guy who was helping me goes "uh...are you who she's yelling about, with the red van?" yep. i was. so she stomps up to me and hollars "WOULD YOU MOVE YOUR FUCKING CAR AND PARK IT STRAIGHT SO I CAN GET INTO MY CAR" .. ok so i didn't park it as straight as an arrow but i did park it as straight as humanly possible given the circumstances of the car to my right being crooked as well... but if you ask me there was plenty of room for this woman to get in her car. so back to the story. she hollars and i reply with "uh can you ask nicely" to which she did ..kinda. with some missplaced sass i might add. so i skipped outside, literally, just showing how happy i was with the sunshiny minnesota day, ain't nothing gonna get me down. so she grumbles in front of the car while i'm moving it talking bout " this is fucking rediculous" etc. so as i was pulling back into the spot slightly straighter because the car to my right was replaced by a car that was straight in its spot, i noticed her window was down so i very sweetly said " hey there, cheer up" to which she replied "maybe you should get a smaller car that you can actually fucking park" i said back super happy "maybe , have a nice day!!!! :)" . then the girl in the car to my right got out and screamed at the lady who was hollaring at me "or maybe she should just kick your fat ass". the end.

now a few side notes. i have some choice words about why this woman couldn't get into her car but i will keep them to myself but if you know me well at all you probably know what they are. and... maybe i'm wrong ...maybe . but i'm pretty sure she was such a meanypants to me because i'm 23 and she's middle aged. nothing wrong with being middle aged, i just think she thought there was something wrong with being young. also i'd like to point out that when i said i said things all sweet like to her i really mean dripping with sugar in such a way that i knew would piss her off..but hey she hollared at me first right...man i want to say everything i want to say but i think thumpers mom taught me better.

my trip to goodwill today

2009-09-13T16:18:00.000-07:00

Yep i went to goodwill today. i go probably every sunday now.. this time there was an indian guy in there that was chattin me up about owls and buffalo then he showed me the difference between the white man's hand shake and the indian version...a lot more referencing spirits.

oh and on the way to goodwill i saw an albino squirell scamper across robert st...needless to say i was in awe.

But i digress... on to my purchases... i got an owl windchime that i decided would look great hangin on the hook with my plant named leslie. here's some poor quality shots of it..i need to figure out what is making my camera so screwy.

Also purchased today was THE WORLD ENCYCLOPEDIA OF CATS. I kinda love it. its a real page turner...heres a few of the most riviting pages.

welp. the end

there have been a lot of questions lately

2009-08-30T11:10:00.000-07:00

as to whether or not i'm happy... yes thank you for asking. right now i am so very much so.
I have a great job with great hours and a great boss and great coworkers and decent clientel.. i have a cute car..that right now is sick but good thing is i have great friends to take me to and fro. I have a pretty ok thing going for me right now. yes i hate winter. yes i miss texas. yes theres a mile long list of people i'd kill a homeless man or two to see right now. but i can wait. or you can come visit anytime. and i think its about time. ive stopped doing a few things that were detremental to me and am doing things that only improve my situations. so there ya go.

so it seems i'll be here another winter

2009-08-30T10:00:00.001-07:00

so i'm preparing mentally for the long winter ahead. so i made a remineasing fall/winter playlist and it goes as follows.

portions for foxes. rilo kiley
dream. priscilla ahn
set out running . neko case
the good that won't come out. rilo kiley
gatekeeper. feist
replay. maria taylor
phenomenon. yeah yeah yeahs
masters in china. priscilla ahn
more adventerous. rilo kiley
something to do with my hands. her space holiday
postcards from italy. beirut
athems for a seventeen year old girl. bss
pale september. fiona apple
post war. m ward
tiny vessels. death cab
your ex lover is dead. stars
do you realize. flaming lips
libraian. my morning jacket
the the mossalium. beirut
marry me. st. vincent
capturing moods. rilo kiley
i never. rilo kiley
elevator love letters. stars
heart. stars
lovers spit. fiests verson
deep red bells. neko case
what me worry? . st. vincent
oppurtunity to cry. priscilla ahn
touch me i'm going to scream pt 2. my morning jacket
wolfie. scout nibblet
touch. bright eyes
i wish i was the moon. neko case
bravo charlie. gregory and the hawk
astronaut. priscilla ahn
title and registration. deathcab
two doves. dirty projectors
does he love you. rilo kiley
poster of a girl. metric
wall flower. priscilla ahn
teenage love song. rilo kiley
jenny, your barely alive. rilo kiley
so sorry. feist
turn into. yeah yeah yeahs
lady. regina spektor
i feel it all. feist
nature song. maria taylor

ok

ok. there's about a million more but i'm tired of typing them so there will be a part two.

i miss living alone

2009-08-19T10:52:00.001-07:00

i miss comin to my apartment and being able to do whatever i want. here i still feel like some stranger... like sometimes i have to be quiet or something ..i don't know. i'm hungry.

barista

2009-08-13T13:35:00.001-07:00

i got a job today.. at a law school's cafe. so that means no weekends. and breaks for holidays. yay

some pictures from my phone

2009-08-10T17:05:00.000-07:00

First off, i made some pigs in blankets the other day. they were pretty good

secondly, i was in michaels and they had a shit ton of owls made out of feathers..this was my fav but it was like $17 and i'm poor.

Thirdly, This is monster. if you don't know monster you don't know nothing. Hes my yorkie at my moms house and when i come home he follows me around with my pant leg in his mouth.

Fourthly, this is wrigley..He's shainas baby and I am in love with him. i'm actually gonna go play with him here in a bit and give shaina a dress to wear on her birthday. cross your fingers kiddos i might actually make a friend thats a girl up here.

Fifthly, i'm making myself a blanket for the cold hard mn winter ahead. I'm five squares in.

This is the little hand loom i'm making it on... i got it at a garage sale for $.50 and am in love with it. reminds me of the weaving class i took at tjc where i sat at one of those giant looms like an amish person or some shit.

BTW. I got me a VW. hardy hardy har.. no really though.. i got a bad ass little 88 VW Golf. its got a sunroof and a system.. I put a Beirut cd in there and it sounds AMAZING.

I thought the key was cute.

The end

ps. i realise ive been doing more bitching than bloggin on here lately so i thought i'd mix it up.

what i dont get

2009-08-06T21:29:00.000-07:00

so why did nick cheat on me with some girl in a club then have to go find a "friend" because i was upset so he "had someone to talk to"?

why so far have 3 boys asked me to enter into serious relationships then backed out?

why do i let this happen?

why do i make poor choices?

how come when i'm with someone, everyone in their life acts like they are sooo there for me then when it comes to an end so does the possiblitly of them giving a fuck about me, my life, how i feel, whats goin on with me...but they will endlessly comfort the asshole

conundrums

just typing

2009-08-04T10:54:00.000-07:00

not really sure what to say . just passing some time right quick before a shower. i'd love to seriously up date about my situation but i don't think this is the right outlet. just know shit hit the fan.

if you're in the mood to hear me bitch

2009-08-01T12:07:00.000-07:00

jessicathered.livejournal.com

its from forever ago.before i moved to st. paul. and if you read it you'll be sure to say my negative nancy shows quite a lot

saturday

2009-08-01T11:42:00.000-07:00

everything i own fits conveniently in a van. and considerably less conveniently in my friends room. looks like my being threw up clothes and shoes and yarn and pictures and owl knick knacks everywhere. but said friend says theys don't care so i guess i don't either.

changed and stifled.

2009-07-31T11:46:00.001-07:00

today i'm gettin my shit. i'm here doing it now. pulling the pictures off the fridge was off... i found a list i made of "good things" and theres a new note on it. anyways. i don't know what to say but i like to listen to feist let it die. very accurate

drama queen.

2009-07-30T10:35:00.000-07:00

so today is a brand new fucking day i suppose. yesterday after my pity party, my friend slapped me around mentally and reminded me why i made the decisions ive made. i will probably need him to do that on a daily basis. but i got to work. i sent out my pathetic resumes and posted my broken down car on craigslist for $1000. as i'm typing this i feel like i'm jinxing it but anyways. then i found a seriously wonderful 88 vw golf for $700 that i'm pining for. pine-ing. neways. so lets do the math. that would leave me with a cushy $300 to feed my addictions to tortillas and lunch meat till i found a job

does that just sound ideal right about now. cross your fingers. i really hope all this shit happens. some guy is supposed to come look at my car today or tomorrow or something. my fingers are crossed.

there is always going to be a real shit time

2009-07-29T10:55:00.000-07:00

ok . this post is not going to be happy. it'll barely make sense i'm sure. but its going to be a vent for me. have you ever heard that 3rd time is the charm bullshit. well its wrong. 3rd time someone has asked me to marry them. 3rd time no follow through. why is the want to be married so ingrained in me. i don't know. ask all the old movies my mother made me watch where it was the whole point of said movie to get the guy and be his precious little housewife . not to mention all the old country songs i was force fed about being a good wife etc. or could it be my mother training me from the get go to cook and clean and take care of everyone. i don't know but that is hardly the point. here is my plight at the moment. i broke up with my fiance/boyfriend type person 2 days ago. i have not a dime. i have no car. i have no job. all i have is a really great friend that has takin me in and has been nothing but supportive and nice to me. so all in all i feel fucked. listen again. i have no money no car no job. i have about 5 pieces of a pizza in the fridge. and no hope after that. now don't get me wrong. i wont starve and i'm being slightly dramatic but the realness of my situation is settin in for me here. i feel like i'm rambling. anyways. my point if i had one might be that i am doing this new thing. tryin to be happy. which right now is not working out so well but i'm working on it. i left him cause i wasn't happy. i mean i was secure. but i wasn't happy. so let me ask you this. what makes people happy. is it smart or stupid to try to be happy , even if it means being in a shit storm.

always with the upmost attractiveness.

2009-06-11T19:54:00.001-07:00

its hard to hold a camera still when you are dancing.

2009-06-04T13:28:00.000-07:00

So my camera isn't the best, but thats been talked about before. So here's the deal. Jenny Lewis came to town. Yeah that first picture includes her dad playing harmonica. The rest are random shots and videos. Have at it.

Back in St. Paul

2009-05-12T12:18:00.001-07:00

So you'd think I'd have this long ramble about my trip to Texas. but I'm just not feeling into a big post. But I haven't posted in a while so I decided to make myself do it. And this is what I have for you today.

www.blockposters.com

I've made 2 today so far.

This one is 5 feet across so that's pretty cool. I'm kind of obsessed with this. and Nick keeps telling me to calm down and not use all the ink. We'll see.

Excuse the mess in the next picture. As I said we just got back and our suitcases etc are strewn.

And this one is in the bathroom. Yes I did rip off Urban and No I don't care. But its something for Nick to look at while he relieves himself. I kind of love it.

So there you have it. A filler post if you will.

My Boo

2009-05-10T13:20:00.001-07:00

Click on dis. And he has new songs that will be up in about 2 weeks. I'll remind you

Make your own banner at MyBannerMaker.com!

The very best from last night.. In my opinion

2009-05-03T16:27:00.000-07:00

ps. My list of places to eat at while home reads as this: El Lugar, Whataburger, Mcallister's, Chicken Express, Don Juans, On the Boarder.
I'll keep you up to date with my progress, but I already conquered Don Juans.

how deep is your love.

2009-04-30T20:27:00.000-07:00

I had my ipod on shuffle and I had no idea I had this perfect wine box wine girly gold nugget of a song. I love it. Thats all. Sometimes music like this takes over my ladyness and I can't stop. Ha.

ps.
Last night Nick got out of recording at midnight and we went to the shady gas station close to his school to get gas, him in my car, me in his. He goes in to get some candy or something and comes out puts his stuff in my car and walks to me pumping gas. We get done say our "see ya at home's" and then he realized he locked my keys in my car! yay. If you know me at all, which you probably don't very well, but keys locked in cars makes me livid, that kind of hot tingle on the back of your neck mad, because there was a month there when I did it just about once a week. So much the locksmith started giving me discounts and was recognizing my voice on the phone. I'm not making that up, ask alison, she worked with me and it only happened at work on my smoke breaks, good thing I'm not a smoker anymore. Anyways. back to the story at hand. So its midnight, keys locked in car, we have to find a lock smith that won't break our bank this time of night. So we find a minimally priced comparatively one and he says he'll be here in 3o mins. Ok so we wait. About 10 mins go by he calls and asks where we are again. Yeah..ugh. Then he calls about 30 mins later and says oh hey saw that cop helping you is all good now? ok first of all the cop looked in the window at the keys and goes "well shit. good luck" and went on his way. So no , he did not help. So guy goes Oh ok so do you want me to come back cause I mean I saw the cop and thought he helped you so I just headed back. WHAT! YOU COULDN'T FUCKING COME CHECK TO SEE. YOU DROVE 10 MINS TOWARDS YOUR HOME THEN AFTERTHOUGHT CALLED US! so yeah come back please and help us get our keys. So he gets there 15 mins later and I was fuming. I ask him why he wouldn't just stop and check to see if for sure the cop helped before going on his way..He starts with some excuse and I'm not really having it so I cut him off with a "lets just get my keys ok". He thinks I'm a bitch, which I am only what circumstances induce ok buddy. Then he gets out his paper work and says "ok what happened here?" . ME, "we locked the keys in the car, what do you mean what happened?" stern tone if you didn't get it. He goes "uh ok sorry for asking" WHAT! SORRY FOR ASKING YOUR STUPID QUESTION, WHY YES YOU SHOULD BE SORRY! I try not to get mad at strangers because I don't know them, I don't know what they are going through but this guy needed a little mouth from me ya know. So dude sticks a very long stick in my window and proceeds to push the window up and down button. I tell him thats not going to work cause its the window button. But what does some little woman know. so He keeps trying, then proceeds to try to pull my door handle from the inside, which doesn't work either. Remember how I said I locked my keys in my car a lot. Yeah well I should know then what does and doesn't work. Then he trys to pull the latch thingy on the door up. Tries and tries and tries. I'm tired of him trying at this point and the stick thing keeps slipping and slamming into my windows and what not. So I say hey so i don't think youre going to get it. He says in a very defiant tone "well I can try" and stands there looking at me. So i said ok..then try ..in a very then stop dragging ass tone. So one last try on his part CRACKS MY WINDSHIELD. He looks at me and says "I think I should stop" Stop what exactly? for the night? being a "locksmith"? I'd go with both. So I had him write out his name and info and that he broke my windshield and sign it and I took pictures. I'm not even sure how that ordeal is going to go but they are gettin me a new windshield I can tell you that right now.
So he leaves and we call everyone in the phone book .. everyone is closed or charging $125+ which is more than I have on me at that point. So we just sit by my car and up walks 3 kids from Nick's school. Nicole, Dan, and Andrew. I don't know them very well. But whatever, they are on adderall so all too eager to help with our plit. They seriously swarmed the car like talkative ants with metal rods they found everywhere poking and prodding at my windows and doors. Then Dan says hey lets call fletch. Fletch is a tow truck guy, doesn't look like one, but is, and has a kit in his car. I know fletch kinda cause he dated Carmen, which has nothing to do with this story. So they call him and he says he'll be there in about an hour. I'll wait. And they waited with us. All hyped up abusing ADD meds and chatting away.
Then theres the random people that happened by. Chad, the homeless guy, who if we watched his back pack, would find a coat hanger. He took off running, sprinting even to find a coat hanger. Then there was the 5 foot tall white gangster that kept touching my car with his greasy little fingers, saying " hey maaaaaaiiiiiiiin , sheeeeiiiiiiiiit I get you in this car, i used to steal shit liek this all the time" so forgive me if I did ask him politely to leave and he said nothing but "you're from the south huh?" I could have exploded, instead I screamed "DON'T YOU FUCKING TOUCH MY FUCKING CAR AGAIN!!!!!!!" which made him suddenly have to leave. Then there were other gangsters that "shiieieiet if you payed me I'd get you in that car real quick, quicker than lightening ..hee hee hee hee" that was a stoned laugh. not sure if you got that. But anyways
Fletch finally came to our rescue at 3am. Thats right friends, thats 2 1/2 hours at the shady s-a on 7th st. But yeah fletch did that right though. He pulled out his kit which had a book listing cars and the right tool, it was amazing and within minutes I was in my car driving home. I think my joyous hug might have startled him but I was crazy happy. Also all he wanted in payment was a slushie!

So yeah we got home and watched the new lost while i drank a little wine to calm my nerves.

But that was last night.

not much going on

2009-04-28T14:58:00.001-07:00

My garden is really gettin' after it, growin' wise.
Also Nick is in the studio a lot this week and the last few, trying to finish his new ep before we go to Texas on Saturday.

I sat in a couple times. Its neat and the chairs are comfortable.

Also, its sounding pretty good. Thought I'd put that out there.

This is slightly embarrassing to me. My hair is a hot mess and so Nick decided to sculpt and mold it into a forehead love art piece

Sooooo, the other night we heard some strange noises in the kitchen. It was Fugees trying to pull something out from under the cabinet. So we looked and it was an old crusty pillow someone had shoved up there who knows how long ago and with who knows what in it. We imagine a head or someones thumbs. But she pulled it out and we kept shoving it back in there as not to disturb whoever owned the head or thumbs, if you know what I mean. (really there was a big crazy open space under a cabinet and its drafty so someone was trying to remedy that and not dispose of bits and pieces, I hope) But, she moved that pillow around enough to be able to climb up in that hole, which is really scary because we aren't sure how deep it is, or where it leads, she could have entered some sort of labyrinth for all we know and might never come out. But turns out if you jingle a ball with a bell in it in front of said opening, she comes right out. Just thought I'd put that out there in case anyone else has a cat trying to dig up thumbs and escape through the walls.

Oh so Friday night I was off and we were bored. So we looked in the City Pages and found some view of some sorts called the Endless Bridge. It was quite short. But in a fancy building which we explored till we got kicked out of a play that we tried to sneak into. But the view from the bridge was pretty neat.

This is the Mississippi.

Its super long huh? ha. And that water fall was pretty bad ass.

Well that's it for me. Bye.

Ps. Go youtube Old School Freight Train's cover of Heart of Glass... Its the only song I've heard them do but its a great cover. For sure.

sierra

2009-04-27T01:38:00.000-07:00

If you aren't into cursive you should be. The title of this is a good song. But thats beside this point. Just saying Cursive is a band I've been into since high school and still are. Ugly organ is a great album. While you read this, while you do whatever for the next 9 mins, yes its that long, youtube Cursive- Staying Alive. and turn it up.

Anyways. In 6 days, I'll be taking my first flight of my 23 years. And i'm terrified. I actually have cried every night since knowing about the flight in dread. Do you have dreams of living in Paris.. a Paris that isn't TX. ha. Do you want to see things? I could die happy if only I could see a blue whale. Is that strange to crave seeing one certain creature so much it hurts? Well it doesn't matter if it is strange or not... its me. And I really think that this first flight is a make or break. It will determine how my life is lived from now on. Since I can remember I was confined to Tyler, Texas, because of fear. Fear of flying mostly. My brother teaches in Korea, my sister's husband has a house in Aruba, which they fly to. I'm the chicken. I'm held back. All in all.. I think I'm more nervous about being scared than actually crashing. Just being scared of flying is enough to prohibit my life. Enough to keep me from seeing so much, from my friends to the world.

So here's my point. Pray for me. Pray for my strength and safety.

Michael came to town.

2009-04-24T09:40:00.000-07:00

So...Michael and new found glory came to Maplewood and played at the Myth. He got us in for free, backstage and what not and this is what happened.

This is actually a view from the back of the audience. I wanted to see how the other half lives. ha.

I, being simple minded, was fascinated by the lights. So I took a picture.

Michael playing some keys for the band.

He was hard at work in this picture.

This picture was mostly taken for Nick so when Michael is away he can look at it and remember the good times.

Ok. So I'm the one that normally takes pictures, which is frustrating, cause unless I force Nick to take one of me, there are none. Which I guess I shouldn't be such a camera whore. But here's an awkward blurry forced picture of me drinking my beer from our hiding spot backstage.

He was tuning them? That's my guess. I don't go to no fancy music school.

See what i mean about the lights. I kept staring. But once again, I'd like to touch on the simpleness of me. Ha

This picture would be super neat if I had a nice camera. Hint Hint. Buy me one.

After all was said and done we hid between the buses for a while to block the pounding winds. Then we decided to go to Buffalo Wild Wings. I had never been to one to eat, only to sip on a vodka 7 when Sarah tended the bar and I worked next door, at the devil's restaurant better known as Cheddar's. BUT, Thursday nights are $.60 boneless wings. Go. Go on a Thursday and get the spicy garlic. That's what I did and left happy. Also the mini corn dogs are delicious as is the mango habanero sauce. I really think BWW should really pay me for this endorsement. Anyways, then we went back to the buses and watched the other people there set off a few bottle rockets. Then, we said our goodbyes. That was my night. And now I'm super hungry after gushing over wings.

ps. this picture makes me happy. Garden growing swimmingly.

Friday. and other days.

2009-04-17T13:50:00.001-07:00

So I went to Goodwill 2 days ago and bought this and am currently working on it working. I've ruined 2 rolls of film and will most likely have to go to the camera repair shop but I want it to work. And I get what I want. Sometimes. But its a Minolta Hi-matic AF2, if you were curious

So last Saturday, April 11th, was the second Burn the Witch Collective House Show. I went, of course, Nick was playing, and I got me some Lone Star. Nothing beats crappy Texas beer. Someone did steal 2 of them however. The nerve.

So this is Nick "rockin out" , "dude". It was him, Speed's the Name, Clawthroat, and Dada Trash Collage. All of which are really good actually. So yeah. You should myspace them.

And then it was Easter. We went to Whole Foods and bought chicken, then came home and dyed eggs and ate way too much.

I take my egg dying very seriously.

He made the best egg. The prettiest in my book. And after it was all said and done, I sat patiently in the bathroom while he hid the eggs in the apartment and then I found them. Then vice versa. It was fun. Especially since I had the best hiding place, in the Easter basket his family sent us, all cuddled up with fake eggs. He had to give up and have me tell him where it was. I win.

This is from the other night. We went and saw Bob Gruen give a talk about photographing all the famous bands he has. He went on and on about how he was good friends with "John and Yoko". Crazy and very cool. He made me even more excited about my new camera. But this picture is beside the point. During intermission, we got super thristy and wanted a beer. So we had to sprint to the bank through the skyway and get some cash. We passed Ronald here and I couldn't resist. Also, he seems to have a rather pervy look on his face.

Now for today. I just pulled these bad boys out the oven.

I already had chives growing, which if you've ever planted something and it actually grew then you know the pride I'm feeling here.

But today I got more plant babies to nuture. Oregano, basil, sunflower, pinnia, and marigold. I also have sweet red peppers, but I got them the same time as the chives, and well one is growing and one is not. So yeah. I guess today is domestic day.

Now its shower time. Then I'm cooking some delicious spaghetti for dinner and watching Cupid while I do it. I kinda like this show. We don't have a tv so I get what I can online. Thanks abc, nbc, fox, and fx. You're the best.

2009-04-07T18:33:00.000-07:00

I have a boring life so I have nothing to say. But I do have 2 pictures that I took today.

I am drooling.

2009-04-02T18:24:00.000-07:00

cupcakes.
oh and I got new glasses today. Turns out I am farsighted and have an astigmatism. Here's a picture with me trying to do my "I'm smart, I wear glasses, I'm a snob" pose.

ps. click on the cupcakes link..you might be sorry but you'll enjoy it none the less.

sunday

2009-03-30T14:42:00.001-07:00

Nick Holmes

2009-03-26T13:23:00.000-07:00

So, last night Nick played at the Acadia in Minneapolis. He's played there many times before, but this is the one time I remembered the camera. Also, it was a pretty good show because the other bands were good as well which is not always the case. Also on a side note, the stage background is all art that's for sale (i think) and I kinda want it all and want it set up in my apartment like that but on a yellow wall. I know you care. Anyways, blah blah blah, it was a good show and a good time.

Anyways. for more of what you hear, but better quality than just me holding a camera up in the air go to his

myspace. I personally like the song "If you could". The end.


ps, was this a shameless boyfriend plug?


pps. The guys playing with Nick are Joel, Billy, and Rich. Billy and Rich are in a band together called

Da Da Trash Collage. They are the guys we went up north with, in previous posts, while they recorded the new ablum they have coming out April 11th at the house show.

Short one

2009-03-24T13:20:00.000-07:00

So.. I posted a new hat on my

Etsy.
Its my favorite I've made so far. I made one and liked it so much I kept it and had to just make another one to put online. The color is powder blue. I wore it to work today and just so happened to grab a co

uple shots of myself in this pulchritudinous hat. Feast eyes, feast!

monthly checklist

2009-03-22T19:30:00.001-07:00

So stumbling like I do from time to time. I come across a gem.
April Monthly Checklist
(also I just learned how to do that whole turn a link into 1 word. I'm so smart with all them technologies.
Anyways. Starting April 1st. I'm doing the check list... Anyone with me?
Here's the list. And if you dig around on that website you can find all the months

Apr 1 April Fool’s Day--Make sure you enjoy a laugh or two today.

Apr 2 Decide and make your spring cleaning list. It might be easiest to divide it up by room.

Apr 3 Wash your automatic coffee maker. Make sure to run white vinegar to dissolve mineral deposits in the machine.

Apr 4 Visit your local library, and check out a book or two for each member of the family. Take some time each day this week to enjoy a few spare minutes reading.

Apr 5 Toss old socks that no longer have mates.

Apr 6 Make a non-perishable food donation to a local food pantry or pet supplies to a local animal shelter.

Apr 7 Wash and scrub out or hose out your garbage cans.

Apr 8 Toss any junk mail.

Apr 9 Wipe your blinds or wash your curtains in at least one room.

Apr 10 Throw away any old magazines or catalogs that are no longer read, used, or expired.

Apr 11 Clear one surface, any surface –dining room table, kitchen counter, dresser, coffee table or a nightstand.

Apr 12 Go for a walk, jog, a run, or a bike ride in order to enjoy some of the fresh spring air.

Apr 13 Give away or sell 5 books you no longer enjoy, need or want.

Apr 14 Clean your toothbrush holder and get some new toothbrushes.

Apr 15 Delete at least 20 files from your computer hard drive you no longer need or use.

Apr 16 Look ahead to the next couple of months and buy ahead some holiday cards (Father’s and Mother’s Days for example).

Apr 17 Clean your windows inside and out, or hire someone to do it.

Apr 18 Gather your garden supplies and tools together. Make sure they are in clean and in working order.

Apr 19 Return at least 2 items you have borrowed in the last few months.

Apr 20 The Jewish Celebration of Passover begins at Sunset. If you celebrate Passover, use your checklist (you do have one, right?) to ensure all important details are remembered.

Apr 21 Weed out your wallet or purse. Toss any old receipts, movie stubs, discount cards, papers that are no longer need. Make sure to shred anything with personal information.

Apr 22 Earth Day, do at least one earth friendly thing today. For example use public transit, walk, or ride a bicycle or recycle.

Apr 23 Clean out your medicine cabinet, making sure to safely dispose of expired medication.

Apr 24 Make sure your first aid kit is fully stocked for the upcoming season.

Apr 25 Delete at least 20 old emails from your computer inbox.

Apr 26 Clean your make-up brushes to remove build up and bacteria.

Apr 27 Start making your garden plans.

Apr 28 Take a bouquet of flowers to a friend or a loved one you haven't seen or visited in a long time.

Apr 29 Clean out your family’s junk drawer, throw out any expired coupons and no long used or wanted restaurant menus. Group like items together such as rubber bands, paperclips, and push pins.

Apr 30 Before changing your winter to summer wardrobe, donate, giveaway, or sell any items that were not worn during the winter months.

I'm actually kind of excited.

I thought I'd give this a try

2009-03-18T12:04:00.000-07:00

Hey, so do you out there in blog land knit? Well I do and every pattern for a hat always ends up looking like a super nerd knitted it. They are always just kinda weird looking and for someone with a different style than me is what I mean. So I found this one pattern that sucked but then I tweaked it. Made it my own. And here it is if you want to give it a try.

First off, I used just boring yarn bought at Hobby Lobby...which by the way they don't have up here... so I guess it's good ol Texas yarn. ha. But its just run of the mill acrylic.

And I also used two different sets of needles. One size US11 and the other US8. I like wooden needles most of all.

Then, cast on 70 stitches using the US8 needles. Now I did 70 because the yarn was not super thin but not super thick. And I have a larger skull. So you may need to adjust it to your skull or the weight of your yarn. I don't really do that whole checking the gauge thing because at this point in my knitting career, lets just say it, I'm inpatient. Anyways, do that whole cast on thing then just, garter stitch, till it reaches 1 inch. That yellow bit was just me doing one row of yellow immediately after casting on then switching back to blue. What can I say I like to mix things up.

Ok, now switch off to the US11 needles and stockinette stitch till its about 5 inches.

Then on the next knit row, knit 5 then knit 2 together. Repeat till end of row
Purl a row..
Knit 4, then knit 2 together, repeat till end of row.
Purl a row
Knit 3, then knit 2 together, repeat till end of row.
Purl a row.
Knit 2, then knit 2 together, repeat till end of row.
Purl a row.
Knit 1, then knit 2 together, repeat till end of row.
Purl a row.
Knit 1, then knit 2 together, repeat till end of row.

Then pull the yarn through the stitches on the needle, like a drawstring. Then wrong side facing out sew it up the side. Turn it right side out and dazzle everyone! ha

Also if you don't knit, but really enjoy this particular hat, it's for SALE!!!
www.jessicathered.etsy.com
At this point my etsy shop is slightly pathetic, but give me time, give me time

dear blog

2009-03-17T00:17:00.000-07:00

I'll end up deleting this tomorrow.
So I took it upon myself to drink a little whiskey this evening. And so Nick goes to bed to rest up for his midterm tomorrow....and well I guess I'm just not done drinking yet. So I'm stumbling around the internet and see this.

And think to myself..."self...it would just be hilarious in the morning if all the eggs had funny adorable faces drawn on them"

So myself and I find a nice little sharpy and sneak all tip-toey into the kitchen, ever so careful not wake up sleeping beauty who is only millimeters away because we opted for the studio.

Tip-toe-ing to the kitchen... sly open the fridge. Pull out the eggs . Then proceed to drop them on the floor. EGG.....EVERYWHERE. .... do you have any idea how many paper towels it takes to clean up just a single solitary egg?! 7... that's how many. Now think how many usually come in a carton and do the math.

my favs

2009-03-13T13:02:00.000-07:00

So today I decided to go through all the pictures and pick out my favorite ones that I personally took. Sometimes when contemplating a career path, I entertain the thought of being a photographer. But then I look at my best pictures and laugh. So here goes.

maybe i like this one cause of the color of the tree. Or maybe its my subject.

Any animal looks super cute if you get up in its face.

I like this. Sue me.

This is crappy quality but I like it.

This is a lucky angle.

My cute animal up in face theory proven again and again.

I like the color of this.

The subjects are what make this great.

I think Amy and that fireworks stand are photogenic

This counts cause I took it. Its not good, I just like how skinny I look.

Good colors.

Ok. This one is a double for me. Because yeah its a picture, thats not the point. Its my first tag.

Another lucky angle.

She was yawning and I caught her soul.. Ha

I like how this is kinda dull in color till you get to Renee's hair.

I love the color of Rue's wall.

This counts. I took it. Its not artistic or anything. But it makes me smile

This is my favorite picture I've ever taken. Ever. But I have to keep in mind its probably impossible to take a bad picture of this woman.

clever title

2009-03-12T12:08:00.000-07:00

So next Tuesday its supposed to be 52 degrees and rain. Balmy! Comparatively.

Anyways, we just went to the wonderful town of Onamia, MN. Its like 2 hours north of the twin cities. Population 876. Precious. But I was told I needed to get out of the cities and have a vacation, so I went along. It was 5 guys and me. In a 2 bedroom timeshare. By the way the guys were there to record their new album, so Nick and I were in hiding in one of the bedrooms. But hey, there was cable. And my love for TLC was, for now, satisfied.

So one day Nick, Joel, and I went to Lake Milacs, the second largest lake in MN. It was frozen completely and we played. Here's what happened.

I haven't left this apartment since getting home Friday night.

2009-03-03T10:40:00.000-08:00

Cabin fever is starting to take over. So, I had a photo shoot with the apartment. I asked it to make love to the camera and what I captured was magic. Ok, so not magic, but just where I live. Which I think is something in need of documentation. My memory is increasingly fuzzy and this will help when Alheizimers sets in fully. So here we go. Ever wonder where I live?
these are the bookselves. Obviously....

This is a slightly boring corner. But I made that plant hanger. So I'm proud.

Thats obviously a couch. The prefix for that table escapes me...hectagon?

The bar.. I'm not sure we have enough musical instruments in this place.

"They" say people eat more when sad or unhappy. So the Jessica diet is to make your fridge make you happy. And mine does. Thats not really my diet. I was just unsure where to put all the pictures.

I love our recycle recepticles. But maybe thats just me.

Oh look! More instruments. We seriously could start a band. Also, thats the violin my friends here got me for my birthday. Good people.

The bathroom was shy. But it did let me take a picture of the tub. Which by the way, did it for me. I mean I saw the tub and told Nick we had to live here. Its claw foot and has a circle rod.

These are yarn puff ball thingies that I made for no reason. But the cat gave them purpose. They are now used for shredding and covering with cat hair, as illustrated in the picture.

And last but certainly not least, OUTSIDE. Yeah, thats what St Paul, MN looks like right now. If anything, this has been informative.

self medicate

2009-02-27T12:09:00.000-08:00

here's the things i'm goin to do.

yoga...because... ok i tried to find some wiki evidence to support but they say its good in relieving stress... i have a mat so why not do it

omega 3 fatty acids...because....http://www.webmd.com/healthy-aging/omega-3-fatty-acids-fact-sheet yes i love me some webmd... and i don't eat sea food so of course i'm lacking.

vitamin b6....because....ok wow..i'm gettin really interested in this stuff. it says women who are alcoholics, taking oral contraceptives, or are on hormone replacement therapy are likely to have a vitamin b deficincy... the only one of those i'm not is oral contraceptive...i can't believe no one has suggested this to me before.....what what does vitamin b6 do for us...."Vitamin B6 is also known as pyridoxine. It’s important for metabolism and also for brain function" and "B vitamin deficiency can cause irritability, depression, confusion"

wow.

ok vitamin d... because...well vitamin d acts as a hormone in your body...it has been linked to depression and it helps absorb calcium...which i'm lactose intolerant so how much calcium am i gettin anyways... no wonder i need new knee caps...

ok thats all for now.